thing
I have to give
you
for all that is the little bit of love that
dwells in the human heart. But
you
know, this is
not
so
awfully
little after all, and it will
compensate
you
for
quite
a
few
things,
if this is humanly
possible.
And
I
simply cannot believe that
your
mother will
never
become reconciled with
you.
Her
whole relation
to
you
would then have to consist of ambition and self-love alone, and be
completely
devoid of
any
love,
and such mothers do not
really
exist.
Also,
you
should
always
remember that
they
still
only
know
me as a
misconception,
and that it is still
up
to
me
to meet
them in
a
light
that is
more
pleasing
to
them. I think that
a
reconciliation will
require much time and goodwill, but
I
am
sure
that it will
come
about.
You
know,
I
have
even
devised several methods
we
could
use
to start
the
process.
E.g.,
if I
could ingratiate myself with
an
acquaintance
of theirs to whom
they
look
up
a
little, they
would
essentially
be
conquered
(this
is what I
assert).
And I have also devised
some
other
little
things.
Do write
soon
to
my
old
man,
sweetheart, since I would like to
leave
on
Saturday
and
they
should
have
a
little
letter before I arrive
home. Will
you
send
me
the letter
so
that I
can see
what
you
have
written?
-
I'll be
travelling
with
my
friend Miss
Bu£ek.
She also
doesn't suspect the mixed
feelings
with which I
am
going
on
this
trip.
Write to
my
Papa
just
briefly, I shall then
gradually
break the
necessary
news,
the
disagreable
ones
included.
But if
you
think that Michele takes such
an
attitude toward the
matter, then it might possibly be better if
you
do
not
tell him
anything at all. It's
simply
that all of them have left behind the
stage of
pure
humane sentiment, mired in life's banality.
You
see
how
your
sister has
a
different attitude toward such
things,
even
if she
vacillates from time
to
time. I
am
really glad that she isn't
up
in
arms
against
me
like the others, but
just
the
opposite.
I'll send the
money
immediately
to
Milan,
should I send
you
the
other stuff too?
Or
if
we
meet,
once
more,
I'll
bring
it
to you.
There is
a
train that
passes
Mettmenstatten at 7: 56 A.M. toward
Zug,
stops there for
a
quarter of
an
hour,
and then
turns
back
again.
Would
you
like to take this
journey
with
me,
sweetheart? Oh, if only
I
could have
you
once
more,
just exactly
to my
heart's desire,
my
dear
sweet
love! If
you
knew how
I
love
you, you
are
my
little all. And
now
goodbye
and don't let it get
you
down
too
much,
my
darling. Think
a
little of
your
little
one,
and be kissed and hugged by
your
D[oxerl]
Has Prof. Winteler
already recommended
you
in Frauenfeld? Would
it not be
appropriate
for
you to
introduce
yourself
to
the pertinent
people
there? That's
a
custom
with
us,
I
don't know how it's here.
122.
TO MARCEL GROSSMANN
Winterthur, Friday
[6?
September
1901]
Dear Marcel!
With
great joy
have I
just read in the
newspaper
that
you
have
become
professor
at
the cantonal school in Frauenfeld.
I
congratulate
you
cordially
on
this
success,
which offers
you
nice work and
a secure
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