at
best, auto-suggestion,
because I
consider
most of the
experiments
he cites
as
dishonest
(I
am
very
sorry!).
One of these
days
I'll
tell
you
why.
But
now
farewell,
my
little
one, my
darling; do
you
think of
me
sometimes, but
kindly
and
nicely?
But
you
are
coming
on
Sunday,
sweetheart, aren't
you,
I've
already
stored
up
such
a
lot of
kisses,
if the
cup runs over,
all will
go
away.
And
now,
hearty
greetings
and
kisses from
your
Doxerl
who is for
the
present
right
angry
with
you
I'll tell
you
a
funny story, something
that
once
happened
to
you!
125. MILEVA MARIC
TO
HELENE SAVIC
Neusatz, Kissacsergassse
20
[ca.
23 November
-
mid-December
1901]
My
dear good little Helene!
[...]
I have
even
written to
you
several
times,
but
my
letters
were
so
full of bitterness and ill humor that I tore them
up
immediately;
I
could not
bring myself
to
send
you
gloomy
news,
and
only
such
ones
were
at my
disposal.
All the
same,
do not get scared, dear, I
am
still
alive and
even
quite
merry
again,
and
so
is
my
sweetheart. The whole
misery
was
due to the
charming
behavior of
my
dear mother-in-law !
.
That
lady
seems
to have made it her
life's
goal
to embitter
as
much
as
possible
not only
my
life but also that of her
son.
Oh, Helene, I
wouldn't have thought it
possible
that there could exist such
heartless and
outright
wicked people! Without further ado they found
it in their heart to write
a
letter to
my
parents
in which
they
reviled
me
to such
an
extent that this
was
really
a
shame. You could
probably imagine
in what
a
conflict this resulted. In
any
case,
it
caused much suffering
to
both Albert and myself.
Now
the air has
cleared
to
some
extent,
i.e.,
Albert's parents
are
not
so
terribly
angry
with him
anymore.
In addition
we
have the misfortune that Albert
has
not
got
a
position;
he is
now
in Schaffhausen, where he is
employed
as a
tutor. You
can
imagine
that he does not feel good in
such
a
state of
dependency.
Yet, it is not
likely
that he will
soon
get
a secure
position;
you
know that
my
sweetheart has
a
very
wicked
tongue and is
a
Jew into the bargain. From all this
you can
see
that
we are a
sorry
little
couple.
And
yet,
when
we are
together,
we are as
merry
as
hardly anybody.
When I
was now
in
Switzerland,
we saw
each
other
a
few times. And
you
know: in
spite
of all the bad things, I
cannot help but love him
very
much, quite frightfully much, especially
when I
see
that he loves
me
just
as
much.
[...]
Albert has written
a
magnificent study, which he submitted
as
his
dissertation. He will probably get his doctorate in
a
few months.
I
read it with great joy and real admiration for
my
little sweetheart
who has such
a
good head
on
his shoulders. I'll send
you
a
copy
when
it gets
printed.
It deals with the investigation of the molecular
forces in
gases
using various known phenomena.
He
is really
a
splendid
183