75.
TO
MILEVA MARIC
[Milan] Thursday. [13? September 1900]
My
dearest Doxerlin!
3/4 of the
stupid
time is
now over, soon
I'll be
again
with
my
sweetheart and
kiss it,
hug
it,
brew
coffee,
scold work
laugh
stroll
chat...+ ad infinit.! This will again be
a
cheerful
year,
will it
not?
I have already declared that I
am
staying with
you
for Christmas.
I cannot wait to have
you
again,
my
all,
my
little
beast,
my
street
urchin,
my
little
brat. Now that I think of
you,
I
just
believe that
I do not want to make
you angry
&
tease
you ever
again,
but want to be
always like
an
angel! Oh, lovely illusion! But
you
love
me,
don't
you,
even
if I
am
again
the old scoundrel full of whims and
devilries,
and
as
moody
as
always!
I don't know whether I have been
writing
you
these days
as
regularly
as
usual.
But
don't make
angry
faces because of that
-
my
aunt is
visiting
here
(the praised
one
from Genoa) with her little
daughter,
a
sadly spoiled
brat. So I have
no room
whatever where I
can
be alone to write to
you.
But if I write in front of
my
parents,
they think
that I
am
doing it
to
spite
them.
By
the
way,
they
are
very
nice to
me,
especially Papa; they
seem
to have reconciled
themselves
to
the inevitable. Both of them will be
very
fond of
you
once
they
get to know
you.
Now I
am
very
glad that I
told
everything.
They
should
be glad too,
because
nowhere
in the world
would
I bee
able
to find
a
better
one
than
you, now,
when I
see
other
people,
I
recognize
this
more
than
ever.
But I also value
you
&
love
you
the
way you
deserve. Even
my
work
seems
to
me
pointless
and
unnecessary
if I
am
not
telling myself
that
you
are
happy
with what I
am
and what I do. And I
am
finally sending
you
the sketch of
my
gigantic
little
foot,
which I
so
often forgot
to
send
you.
Johannsel's foot! [accompanied by
a
sketch]
Since
you
have such
a
huge imagination
& are
used
to
astronomical
distances,
I
believe
that the
accompanying
work of art will suffice.
I
am
glad
that
you
stroll around
so
much
&
have
gotten
a
good
sunburn
-
how
am
I
going
to
press my
little
Negro girl
to me! I
am
also
looking
forward
very
much to
our new
studies. You
must
now
continue with
your
investigation
-
how
proud
I will be when maybe
I'll have
a
little doctor for
a
sweetheart while I
am
myself still
a
totally ordinary
man.
But I
already
mentioned in
my
last
letter,
didn't I, that Matter
got the
position
in Frauenfeld
&
that consequently I shall probably
advance to Hurwitz's servant with God's
help (of
course
because he is
a
man). Doesn't matter, Toxerlin,
at
least it's
yours.
The Boltzmann is
magnificent.
I have almost finished it. He is
a
masterly expounder.
I
am
firmly
convinced that the
principles
of
the
theory
are
right,
which
means
that I
am
convinced that in the
case
of
gases
we are
really dealing
with discrete
mass
points
of definite
finite
size,
which
are
moving
according
to certain conditions.
Boltzmann
very
correctly
emphasizes that the
hypothetical
forces
between the molecules
are
not
an
essential component of the theory,
as
the whole
energy
is of the kinetic kind. This is
a
step forward in
the
dynamic
explanation
of
physical
phenomena.
Do
you
also know
already
that for
some
time I have been
shaving
myself,
and that with
great
success? You'll
see,
Toxerline. I
can
always do it while
you
are
brewing
the coffee after lunch,
so as
not
to continue
studying
as
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