134.
TO
MILEVA
MARIC
Bern Tuesday
[4
February
1902]
My
beloved sweetheart!
Poor, dear sweetheart,
you
must suffer enormously if
you
cannot
even
write
to
me
yourself!
And
our
dear Lieserl
too
must
get
to
know
the world from this aspect right from the beginning!
I
hope
that
you
will be
up
and around again by the time
my
letter arrives.
I
was
scared
out
of
my
wits when
I
got
your
father's letter, because I had
already suspected
some
trouble. External fates
are
nothing compared
with this. At
once
I felt like
being
a
tutor
with
N[uesch]
for two
more
years
if this could make
you
healthy and happy.
But you
see,
it
has really turned out
to
be
a
Lieserl,
as
you
wished.
Is she
healthy
and does she
already
cry
properly?
What kind of little
eyes
does
she
have?
Whom
of
us
two
does she resemble
more?
Who is
giving
her milk?
Is
she
hungry?
And
so
she is
completely
bald.
I
love her
so
much
&
I
don't
even
know her
yet!
Couldn't she be
photographed
once
you
are
totally healthy again? Will she
soon
be able
to
turn her
eyes
toward
something?
Now
you
can
make observations.
I
would like
once
to
produce
a
Lieserl
myself,
it
must
be
so
interesting!
She
certainly
can
cry
already,
but to
laugh
she'll learn much later. Therein lies
a
profound truth. When
you
feel
a
little better,
you
must
make
a
drawing of her.
It's
delightful here in
Bern. An
ancient,
exquisitely
cozy
city,
in which
one can
live
exactly
as
in Zurich.
Very
old arcades stretch
along
both sides of the streets,
so
that
one can
go
from
one
end of
the
city
to the other in the worst rain without getting
noticeably
wet. The homes
are
uncommonly clean, I
saw
this everywhere yesterday
when I
was
looking for
a
room.
It does
me
extremely good to have
escaped
from the
unpleasant
environment.
I
already
saw
to it that
an
advertisement will be
published
in the local gazette.
I
hope
it will
be of
some
help.
If
only
I
got
2
lessons
per
day,
I
could
save
something
for
you.
I have
a
large beautiful
room
with
a
very
comfortable sofa.
It
only costs 23 fr. This is not much, after all.
In
addition,
6
upholstered chairs and
3
wardrobes.
One
could hold
a
meeting in it. Its plan follows:
[Plan]
B
=
little bed
N
=
chamber pot
&
table
b
=
little picture
F
=
little window
d
=
coverlet
O
=
stove
gS
=
magnificent
chair
S
= little chair
gZ
=
magnificent
mirror
T
=
door
J
= Johonzel
T
=
table
K
=
wardrobe
V
=
nothing
K =
sofa
U
=
little clock
kZ
=
small mirror
r
=
look at that!
[sketch]
And
now,
get well
again
fast,
I
beg
you
as
nicely
as
I
can.
Give
my
kindest
regards
to
your
dear mother.
191